Day by Day

365 days of my life, beginning on June 23, 2011
~ Friday, June 1 ~
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Day 346:

Happy birthday to my beautiful, supportive, incredible mother. I love you. Even though I blame you for the pain I’m currently in…owie, owie, owieeee. My entire body aches after yesterday’s workout. I’ve got a ways to go to get in rugby shape. Today’s incredible red velvet cupcake surely didn’t help…I’m not even a cake person, but this was perfection in cake form. So it deserved a picture. Plus I was desperate since the last few days have lacked in the photo department. 

I worked at KidKare this morning. It never fails to amaze me how much I love the kids. Like literally love them, not just love spending time with them. They each find their way a little farther into my heart every day. I love looking around the room during nap time, when they’ve all settled down and some have even fallen asleep. Even the biggest trouble makers just look so serene. I’m blessed beyond belief. 

I also “worked” at RCC tonight. Translation: watched 3 movies and ate. It was rough. 

Oh, also, a carrot exploded in my mouth today. As in actually blew up. BAM. In my mouth. My entire throat in burnt now. That was fun.

THERE’S SOMETHING WRONG WITH TUMBLR AND IT’S MAKING WORDS ORANGE AND LINK TO THINGS. I’M SORRY!


~ Thursday, May 31 ~
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Day 345:

Sometimes the little things really are just little things. We spend so much time reading into these little things and building up expectations for a person, expectations that the person isn’t even aware of. Then, when these expectations remain unfulfilled, we become disappointed. Upset. Angry. Frustrated. But, if a person isn’t even aware of expectations, how could they possibly fulfill them? I’ve been waking up in the middle of the night thinking about situations like these. I need to remind myself more often not to expect too much from people. 

Anyway, I went to an Orange Theory class tonight and got my butt kicked. It felt really, really good to be pushed during a workout. I feel like I never push myself, but when I’m surrounded by other people and an instructor it really helps. I’m gonna be sooooore tomorrow. Worth it though. 


~ Wednesday, May 30 ~
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Day 344:

I had pictures for today…then I deleted them. Oops. 

I worked, as usual. Afterwards I went with Hannah to get her bellybutton pierced (had pictures, they’re gone now). It was nasty, but turned out cute. We also went to Cherry Berry, got some coupons from a cute guy (he didn’t give them to anyone else. Teeheee). That wasn’t such a great idea…too much chocolate. We headed back to Buffalo and spontaneously decided to go to Applebee’s, a good decision on our part. It was bargo (bingo) night and the guy announcing was pretty funny. There was also a dance off and one girl fell, so naturally that made my night (as when anyone falls). I spent the night at Hannah’s since we both worked at 7am and spent the night fighting off her devil cat. 


~ Tuesday, May 29 ~
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Day 343:

The sky was neat today. So that was…neat. Yeeeahhh…

I’m in one of my ruts I think. I feel like everything is the same, every day. If that’s true then I’m in for a long summer. It’s a good thing I love my job and coworkers. 

I finally forced myself to get my butt out of bed somewhat early and go work out. I need to make that a habit and shed about ten pounds before rugby starts up again. We’ll see how that goes. 


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Hahahaha so true. 

Hahahaha so true. 


~ Monday, May 28 ~
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Day 342:

Memorial Day. Thank you to all who have fought to give us the freedom we have today. 

That being said, today’s a day to be thankful for what we have been blessed with. Instead, I’ve been sitting here feeling irritated that I’m always surrounded by couples reminding me of what I don’t have with someone. That sounds so selfish, but sometimes I can’t help it. I know I’m only 19 and I have so much time to meet someone still, but I can’t help feeling like I never will. I just have unrealistic expectations of people I think, which seems to screw with the relationships I do have. I’ve always been really independent and maybe that’s even part of my problem. I don’t like letting people have an effect on me because I like to be in control of my own emotions and actions without other people having any impact. I know that’s an unrealistic expectation for anyone, but still. Especially after experiencing some of the emotions I have this year, it just makes it hard to have faith in the future in a way. I feel like every time I get hurt, it makes me more and more likely to shut people out. I am happy on my own and single. It’s just that I know that when you find someone who fixes you, makes you more yourself than anyone, how overly happy you really can be. The past crosses my mind every single day. I wish I knew that someday it wouldn’t. That someday I would just feel like I could relax about the future. That that one person would not even enter my thoughts. I wish I knew that sometime, someday, somewhere, I really will meet someone who will sweep me off my feet and make me wonder why I ever doubted anything like this. If I knew that, I could avoid stupid rambling posts like this. Maybe I’m just tired…probably not the reason, but I like the excuse. 


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“ There is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively, but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these lovable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person who defines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins. They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.

~ Sunday, May 27 ~
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Day 341:

Wow, less than one month left until June 23, the day I began this project. Time flies when you’re having fun…and when you’re not. 

Today wasn’t too exciting. It was about 90 degrees and humid out, so Hannah and I stayed in and watched Grey’s alllllll day long and then went to the River Inn for dinner. I love the small town feel of being there. It reminds me a lot of Dream Land in Michigan. We picked my mom up from her girls night and it started storming pretty badly on the way home. There was more hype about it than it deserved, because it didn’t get too bad out. There was some crazy lightening though. Hannah slept over and we watched What’s Your Number then fell asleep pretty early. 


~ Saturday, May 26 ~
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Day 340:

Happy birthday to my best friend. :)

We threw a surprise party for Jillian at my house today. It was nice to have most of my friends in one place. It’s weird to think that a year ago, I didn’t know most of these people and now they’re some of the most important people in my life. We spent the majority of the night playing Cards Against Humanity, an adult version of Apples to Apples. It made for some good laughs. My favorite card had to be dwarf tossing. There were so many random cards…it was hilarious. It was a good time and I think Jillian had fun.